Lately, I've been thinking of how blessed I am, in so very many ways. I believe that one of my favorite blessings is getting to stay home with Damari. That kid melts my heart, and I know he should, but really, he's awesome. Sure, we have our down days, but overall he really is a good kid.
The decision for me to stay home wasn't easy. When we first moved, I worked full time and Josh was initially working in Hendersonville Monday-Friday. That was a very tough and trying time for me, but we survived. Once Josh was home and we moved and settled in to 'The Farm' I was working 3 nights a week and Damari was in daycare. I hated him being there. Josh and I would pass each other in the driveway 3 days a week and the other days I'd spend catching up on sleep and all the housework. We were both extremely stressed. I'd be in tears numerous times a week due to the stress I had. I felt God wanted me at home and Josh and I talked about it and decided for us to make the jump.
After all, with my crazy schedule, Josh wasn't able to put in the hours he needed to for Graybrooke, so we solved many solutions at one time. Damari wasn't in daycare, I could tend to all the needs of raising a child and running a house, my sleep schedule was normal again, and Josh could pull the long hours needed to get a business started. We are fully trusting God to provide for us since we no longer have my steady income. I still work 4 hours a week, but that is a lot different than 36.
Anyway, back to my point, I am home with my son EVERY day. I love playing with him, teaching him new things, singing with him, laughing with him, coloring with him, exploring outside with him. He is really developing into a smart, funny, loving child. We have the tantrums at times and some days I want to scream and pull my hair out, but don't we all have those days no matter where we work? I love being able to cook a healthy dinner for my family (something that was rare when I worked full-time), keep the dishes done, grocery shop, do laundry and everything else.
Being able to stay home has opened me up to so many things. I had a garden this year for the first time and hope to have an even bigger one next year. I try a new recipe almost every week. I love to cook and really enjoy experimenting in the kitchen. I've started making my own dishwasher detergent and once I use up all our store bought cleaners I plan on making my own. I no longer use the dryer regularly, I line dry our clothes. All in all I feel like I'm getting back to the real meaning of life. Things don't have to be so elaborate and I don't need the newest gadget or appliance or whatnot. (I do however, HAVE to have my dishwasher!)
I love my simple life and some days I still only see Josh in passing, but I believe that God will bless us for trusting HIM and that He will bless Josh in his long hours and hard days. If an emergency comes up, Josh is able to be there with us or for us. We make time to be together as a family and Damari gets several hours alone with Josh on Wednesdays when I work, which I think is so important and awesome! I look forward to having more children and cooking for a big family. I want to raise them to respect authority and treat women with kindness and decency. I want them to know that life can be hard and you have to work for things, everything isn't just given to you. I want them to want to help others and serve those less fortunate than themselves. I want them to be able to entertain themselves and enjoy reading a good book. I want them to value God and family and a simple life.
LIFE IS GOOD!
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